Anyone else just going through it all right now?

Mid Tour Midnight Ramble.

Mar 04, 2026

Anyone else just going through it all right now?

I’m happy one minute then sadness creeps in the next. Fearful and content. Tight and loose all at the same time. Up feels down. I just want to hide out from the world, but of course I’m on the road playing shows, standing up in front of a room full of people each night. It’s probably the best thing for me I suppose. I feel held by the people that show up as well as by my songs and my band. I can retreat into their verses, I can fall into a trance fairly easily by playing a lot of my songs. Someone mentioned this to me the other night while on a set break, a fella just came up to me and said my songs were putting him into a trance like state. I think that’s a good thing? To me it’s a hyper state of mellow if that makes any sense?

Anyway, I’m wide awake at 1:45 am, my heartbeat woke me up, I thought it was my phone going off but nope, it was just little old me swimming in the “adrenaline bath” that is my life. That’s what a doctor called it the other day, he told me I didn’t need medication but a career change!

Far out right?

I’ve been on this rollercoaster a long time, I don’t know how to get off. I might take a break but the stars are doing some weird shit right now and it isn’t the time to make any major decisions.

I’m holding on.

I’m breathing in

And out

I’m wide awake

I’m dreaming

I’m full of love and fear and gratitude and confusion.

It must be a retrograde.

But I’m here for it. I want to retreat and hide, but I have to get onstage and find the love amongst the confusion.

It’s there, it’s my job to pull that thread till it’s revealed. It’s fun and meaningful I suspect.

I’m tired now and I should try and get back to sleep.

All this to say if you are feeling it all too, you are not alone.